Mary did you know?

The other day as I sat in my partially decorated, warm living room on my comfortable sofa, nursing my precious son and a cup of decaf coffee, I couldn't help but reflect on Mary. You see I never truly had the perspective of just how amazing she was until I became a mom. Here was a young girl - we're talking teenager here - who was not yet married, carrying a child she never chose to create. To top it off, this child is the Son of God and forgiver of our sins...talk about intimidating! I mean I question whether or not I am going to be able to raise my son in a manner in which he will love God and be a good and faithful servant. How did this girl do it? There are so many resources out there for me to read if I am not sure if I am doing what's best for him and plenty of opportunities to become overwhelmed. I forget that all I need is a quiet place to pray and my bible. As far as I know, Mary did not have these luxuries (well, maybe the opportunity to pray). What great faith she must have had. Let's put aside the difficulty she endured giving birth in a manger.That's just the beginning of her story as the mother of Jesus Christ. how terrified was she of doing the wrong thing? Did she have trouble controlling her temper? How exhausted was she in those first weeks when he needed her to give all of herself to feeding him? Here is a woman of strength like no other. Of course, God chose her specifically because she had this strength - but I wonder, did she know she had it when He chose her? Did she questions God's choice? I am confident she did (she's only human, right?). I truly wonder what being the mother of Christ would be like...