What a Difference a Day Makes

I don't know why I have this ritual of freaking out every time we are away from school for a few days. I worry and fret over all of the work that didn't get done, the stress of feeling like I don't know what I am going to be doing the next week, and the fear that my students are going to be bored or misbehaved (or God forbid I won't be able to show them the proper amount of love because I am feeling so down). And then the time comes when I must face the day that I fear so much...but wait! That work gets done, the lessons of the day go smoothly, and most importantly there is more love to give to these angels than I can stand. Where did the love come from? It came from their warm smiles, great ideas, genuine enthusiasm, and hilarious personalities. Suddenly I remember my purpose for getting up each day. I remember the "big picture" and I am praising God for this amazing blessing (among many others I am suddenly able to see more clearly) in my life. I remember that even with the hurt and pain I feel from our two losses, I can get through each day because I have gained the love, affection, and hard work of 20+ beautiful children...Suddenly I have so much to be thankful for. Thank you Lord for this beautiful gift you have given me.