It started as a small charm on my wrist and morphed into a ring that fits on my right hand. Daisies for the simple beauty and serenity I derive from them, and diamonds for the memories I want to both love and forget. The precious gifts we never fully knew will forever be a part of me; and so I celebrate what God has given and taken away. As I have watched the growth and first accomplishments of other children I can’t help but morn the friend they will never know. Every birthday party, video or picture on Facebook, every new family edition elicits sincere joy and sorrow within me. I am so grateful to be a part of these treasured moments and cannot wait until we can share these moments with our own special child. Until then, I will continue to relish in the delightful moments set out before me. I pray that one day I will have the chance to finally meet the two lives I never knew.
And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, "Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that YOU would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!" So God granted him what he requested. (1 Chronicles 4:10 NKJV)
In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the LORD. And she made a vow, saying, "O LORD Almighty, if YOU will only look upon your servant's misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the LORD for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head." (1 Sam 1:10-11, NIV)
Lauren,
ReplyDeleteGod is good. His peace in moments of our brokenness is unlike any other. My prayers are covering you daily and I know that God is faithful and will bless you and Chandler with a child in His time. Love you girl and I am here if you need me! HUGS!
I love you, Lauryn! I, too, long for that day to meet your two special ones. And I am still laboring in prayer for you, that God will do a mighty work in your life!
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